Nightmare

Ever been to a situation where you wanted something very much but the more you do, the further you are from your goal?

Ever wanted to be with somebody, and the more you try, the further the distance between both of you?

Ever worked hard to produce a good assignment, and you edited it so many times, at the end the lecturer just failed you?

I go to bed haunted by the past failures. I wake up telling myself that it was a bad dream. 

I tried to forget, but it just came back to me like your pet dog which never forget where you live. 

Then I grow up understanding this occurring emotion, and make it my ally. It serves as a good, if not best, reminder to what I have done wrong in the past,

and every time I am about to commit another mistake, it will knock on my door telling me of my nightmares. 

I guess this feeling is also kind enough not to let the list of misfortunes prolongs.

Today at least the mistakes I do will be repairable, and fatal ones are much lesser. Of course sometimes I slack, but the feeling will be my best companion, warning me again and again. 

Nightmares still visit me once a while, I guess it just miss me.

I'm imperfect, and that makes life worth living.